You weren’t the best thing that ever happened to me
Maybe for a while
But after the allure ran out
I was just a person with too many problems for you
Sorry my life isn’t a storybook dream
What would you like me to do about that?
Lie about everything going on?
Lie about being happy?
Yes of course I wanted you to be happy
But the problems I was dealing with (still dealing with) are/ were not things you can just push aside
And it’s funny because when you’re having an issue you expect me to just put my stuff aside and help you to forget about yours or make you feel better
But how did you help me? By telling me to take control of myself?
If I had control over the situations that were troubling me I wouldn’t have felt so bad
Is that so hard to understand?
Literally everything that happened was out of my control.
Yes I can control myself but I can’t control how others react to me
You can’t deny that
Am I supposed to stay silent and not defend myself ever?
Because that would literally be the only solution to keeping the peace
And I was sick of being silent
You were my everything for so long
And it pains me to say that my everything didn’t understand me
To my core
Someone who doesn’t even know me had to explain me to you
I’m not sure why I held on for so long
I got way too comfortable with you
Even after the first sign I knew you weren’t right for me
I take back what I said
I don’t want to be with you or marry you
Our future is not in the back of my mind anymore
The only thing I’m focused on