Everything I Didn’t Tell You Since the Day We Met

Everything I Didn’t Tell You Since the Day We Met

Poem by Rupi Kaur

Did I ever tell you how I felt about you since the day I met you?

If not, that was my first mistake. Not because I regret what happened after. Everything happens for a reason and I truly believe that. However, it took me until now to realize how closed off my heart was to you.

So let me explain. Not because I need to, but because I want to tell you in great detail how I feel about you and for how long.

. . .

On the day we met, I was in awe of you.

I was excited that you were the first one to talk to me at this new job that I was at outside of the people from orientation.

But the complication lied in me still being with my ex ( my boyfriend at the time). So, I felt as if I had to hide my feelings for you since then.

When you first spoke to me, I was glad to find out you were an artist like me and you gave me one of your pins. I thought it was super cute of you to give me one especially on our first meeting.

Without naming the place we both met, you and I both know we flirted and saw each other many times after that. I was sad that I had to turn you down when you had asked me out on a date.

At the time, me and my ex had actually just gotten back together after a small break and I wished I had met you sooner; clearly that was not in our plan.

I want to go back to that fun and flirty energy we had, I helped you and you helped me.

I loved every single time I heard you call me Nikki.

I love everytime you call me or come visit me when you’re drunk. It’s actually super adorable. It makes me hope that one day you’ll come home to me at night drunk like that from hanging out with friends and spoil me with your drunk kisses and cuddles.

It sounds like a line, but I never adequately enjoyed cuddling until the first time I was wrapped in your arms. There’s something about you that words can’t express.

I am yours and you are mine.

Since the day we met ❤

N. Oliva

A Letter to my Followers. What would you like to see? 

A Letter to my Followers. What would you like to see? 

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been contemplating what I want to do with the rest of my life. 
The answer: I’d love to create. 
Film, art, maybe in the future act or write a play. But before I get ahead of myself, I need some slight inspiration from you all. I have some ideas in my mind. But I’d really like to know what you all would be interested in. 
What genres of film are your favorites? Do people watch shorts that aren’t your average funny video on YouTube? Honest question.

One idea that I’ve been throwing around in my mind, is a film with a female villain. I’m unsure of her name so far. She meets this girl Daisy, who has been struggling to find herself. And she’s really struck by Daisy’s honesty. 

I’m thinking of naming the film Spark. You’ll see why if you’re interested. 

I’m so tired of seeing all the same films about all the same things. Or films that are simply an escape from reality, without trying to add something better to reality. Beyond documentaries, not many mainstream films address struggles of your average person. 
Daisy is a sweet girl who tries to see the best in everything and everyone. She truly wants to make the world a better place. But she’s unsure how. She hasn’t had the best family upbringing, has always felt bitterness from her mother, stepdad and sister, but she appreciates everything she has been through regardless. 

What I need is a motivation for her character. What wakes her up in the morning? What wakes you up in the morning? What’s going to take this sensitive woman from wanting to stay inside all the time, from doing the complete opposite?

My struggles right now are very close to Daisy’s.

I want to start a conversation. What do you think? What do you feel? I’m here for you. Inspire me, like I hope to inspire you all. 
Nicole xoxo.