What Do I Want To Do With My Life?

What Do I Want To Do With My Life?

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When I think about what I want for my life, the present the future, etc., sometimes I’m very torn. Maybe I’m asking too much of myself to even know what I want to do with the rest of my life.

At times, I want a life where you know, I make a lot of many and I’m financially able to do whatever I want. But when I think about it realistically I know this financially competent life will not come to me easily.

Other times, when I take a moment to pause and see what’s around me. I am so thankful that my life is great in a very simple way. For those who do not know, I am 23 years old, so pardon me if I’m speaking beyond my years, but I’m happy that I was raised having great pride for where I come from even though my origins do not necessarily involve great assets or a family business. The community of people who have raised me has all done great in their own way. Though they do not get large recognition for this, does not change how wonderful they are.

So continuing with my own thoughts and what I want with my life I think I want a happy medium of the two lifestyles I keep pushing myself towards. Nothing extreme. I don’t mind working hard, don’t get me wrong. But when I have children, for example, I want to be a part of their lives. Not just for a few hours a day. I want to make breakfast for them. Ask them how their day was when they leave school. Simple things like this that could affect their lives positively. Having that person you can always go to talk to is important to me. I know not all children want to be attached to their parents, and I hope I won’t appear to be one of those parents trying to be cool either. But I do want them to feel like I’m a person they can trust and come to with whatever thoughts or concerns they have. Even questions I might not be able to answer, or in some instances, questions and concerns that may be off-color or traditionally hard to speak about.

When I think what I want for my life: I want to do everything I’m anxious to do, but also not too many things or jobs that steal from my joy.

That’s really general, I know. Which makes it even more difficult to figure out what exactly I want to do for a career.

First and foremost, I like writing on this blog because there’s no obligation.

Second, I created this blog, so it’s one hundred percent under my control.

I don’t have a boss telling me when to blog. The only parameters I basically have are an audience that I have to attract through WordPress reader or social media. And believe it or not, I love that challenge. When I started this blog, the challenge was very new, and even two years later there’s still an ever-changing challenge to find you guys who have the patience and the want to read my posts.

It’s not that I don’t like authority or working with a boss. I just hate having to deal with that traditional boss that overreaches and in general, just makes your life less about you.

I don’t think it’s narcissistic to want my life to be about me, and doing what I want that brings me joy.

I hate this notion some people have that your job doesn’t have to be something you like doing, that you go for the money, because every time I’m at my wit’s end at a job that I don’t like and I’m doing simply for the money, I get back to the same problem I’m having currently: grappling with my own thoughts on my future.

What do I want to do with my life?

Things that add joy my life, provide a challenge, give me something new to tackle and somewhere in between there, hopefully, those things can provide me some income.

Those who know me personally know I’d love a life and career in some form related to film work. I know that getting a start in a film career is not easy. But I’ve already gotten two production gigs under my belt. If things work positively, maybe I’ll be hiring production assistants sometime in the future!

dream job next exit


N. Oliva

Rosebud – A Piece of Film History I Adore And Would Own With Pride – Citizen Kane 1941 *Spoiler Alert*

Rosebud – A Piece of Film History I Adore And Would Own With Pride – Citizen Kane 1941 *Spoiler Alert*

**Citizen Kane 1941 Orson Welles - Image of Charles Foster Kane from Imdb**
**Citizen Kane 1941 Orson Welles – Image of Charles Foster Kane from IMDB**

Before seeing Citizen Kane, I did not understand what all of the noise was about. A significant portion of older films received a load of recognition close to the ‘dawn of film’. However, since Citizen Kane is heralded as one of the best films ever made, I could not judge a book by its cover, or in this case, by the film’s name or poster image. Citizen Kane was released in 1941, many years after film’s inception, leaving more reason to trust the credibility of many scholars who judge this movie as a major achievement in film history for the production techniques used as well as the story-line.

So, who is Citizen Kane?

**Spoiler Alert: Do Not Read Further If You Have Not Seen Citizen Kane and wish to not have the ending spoiled** 

[ The Mystery of Kane ] Citzen Kane - Image of Kane from A Sharper Focus **The Gaff Blog does not own this image**
[ The Mystery of Kane ]
Citizen Kane – Image of Kane from A Sharper Focus **The Gaff Blog does not own this image**

Who is Charles Foster Kane and what is the meaning of the word Rosebud?

If you’re patient enough to watch until the end, the audience gets a hint of the true meaning and importance of Rosebud. The film asserts that the world never truly knew Mr. Charles Foster Kane. How could they? Kane is a famous publishing tycoon and when news spreads about the last word he says before his death, people scramble to figure out what it meant: Rosebud.” 

Kane is a man who was sold to a rich man by his poor family. Further down the line, he becomes the owner of a newspaper and creates his own news, among many other things. Kane has a good amount of time wrapping up his image with a nice neat bow until a competing paper divulges a cheating scandal with another woman. Kane is played by the genius himself, Orson Welles, who unfortunately did not receive much critical acclaim beyond discussions related to Citizen Kane. Kane’s character is based on WR Hearst. But the character of Kane is an enigma by himself. It would be hard to describe him any other way than to say the man that everyone wants to be friends with. But to love? Perhaps not. He has everything he could ever want — it seems. Except the thing he wanted the most as a child: Rosebud, a snow sled. And theoretically: Pure joy. When he was sold by his original parents to his rich guardian, he lost that childish but also a very important sense of love and joy. The person who obviously changed his life, some could say for the better, lacked the love of a mother or father. Technically, he received all of the physical things he wished for. But not love. Which is why his relationships with women fail and his life end in lonesome.

I think anyone who comes from an atypical home can relate to the less than spectacular feeling that encompasses Kane. He constantly reached for love and admiration from outside forces, girls dancing around him, the crowd cheering during his political speeches about the common man (though he was far from common with his rich father/guardian) even when he truly did not know what love meant because he did not experience love since his childhood. It can be argued that Kane never did experience love, because his family gave him away for money. Sure, it made his life better financially. But when someone’s dying words are the name of an old sled: You can get the feeling that he truly did not experience much joy.

If I could see or own Rosebud: I would treasure it and own it with pride because of everything the sled symbolizes. Like Kane, Rosebud is more than what meets the eye. Yes, it’s a sled. Roger Ebert wrote in his own review of Citizen Kane, “Rosebud is the emblem of the security, hope, and innocence of childhood, which a man can spend his life seeking to regain. It is the green light at the end of Gatsby’s pier; the leopard atop Kilimanjaro, seeking nobody knows what; the bone tossed into the air in “2001.” It is that yearning after transience that adults learn to suppress.” Source: (http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/great-movie-citizen-kane-1941)

“Maybe Rosebud was something he couldn’t get or something he lost,” says Thompson, the reporter assigned to the puzzle of Kane’s dying word. “Anyway, it wouldn’t have explained anything.” (Dialogue from Citizen Kane)

Ebert goes on to write: “True, it explains nothing, but it is remarkably satisfactory as a demonstration that nothing can be explained.” Citizen Kane likes playful paradoxes like that. Its surface is as much fun as any movie ever made. Its depths surpass understanding. I have analyzed it a shot at a time with more than 30 groups, and together we have seen, I believe, pretty much everything that is there on the screen. The more clearly I can see its physical manifestation, the more I am stirred by its mystery.”

To me, the sled also symbolizes joy and the simplest forms of love. If you experience all of these things often, consider yourself lucky.

If you have not seen Citizen Kane, check out the marvel that it truly is.

For more info on Citizen Kane read Roger Ebert’s full review: http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/great-movie-citizen-kane-1941  and read his “Viewer’s Companion to Citizen Kane:” http://www.rogerebert.com/rogers-journal/a-viewers-companion-to-citizen-kane

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XP Webcomic Artist Turns Disney Princesses Into Velociraptors – Velociprincesses

XP Webcomic Artist Turns Disney Princesses Into Velociraptors – Velociprincesses

People are super obsessed with Raptors since seeing the bad ass quartet in Jurassic World.

So Laura Cooper, artist that creates loveliness for XP (xpwebcomic.com) turned Disney Princesses into Velociraptors!

Before I say much else, my favorite of the bunch is the one created for Mulan: the quote Cooper chose to use is perfect! 😄


Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic) **The Gaff does not own this image**

The remainder are as follows.


Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**


Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Frozenraptors: Anaraptor & Elsaraptor

Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**

Lastly, Pocaraptor

Image by Laura Cooper from  XP (the webcomic) **the gaff does not own this image**
Image by Laura Cooper from XP (the webcomic)
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Inside Out (2015) A Film Where Emotions are the Stars – Pixar – Directed by Pete Docter and Ronaldo Del Carmen

Inside Out (2015) A Film Where Emotions are the Stars – Pixar – Directed by Pete Docter and Ronaldo Del Carmen

So, I’ve always personally loved Pixar films. Who doesn’t love good animation?

Pixar, so far has not made a bad film, and they’re not about to start.

I’ll admit when I first saw the initial trailer for Inside Out, I liked it, however, I thought it was just a dash bit too corny.

Don’t crucify me just yet. From beginning to end of the film, I was blown awaaayy.

Not only is the film about the inner workings of our brain, but the animated protagonist is a girl!

Thank you Pixar!

Riley Anderson (Kaitlyn Dias), a girl who loves goofing off with her family and playing hockey is a joy to watch throughout the film.

And that’s not even the best part! **Spoiler Alert**

The film starts from her first memory.

Riley is a baby at home with her parents.

We see the inner workings of Riley’s life and some of her life events played out through her memories and the personified emotions inside her head which seem to decide her outcome for every interaction based on her emotion that takes over.

The emotions are the stars of the film. But Riley is still the true protagonist for me. It is her life, but the emotions control it, which is majority of what we see: her emotions – Joy, Fear, Anger, Disgust and Sadness and how their decisions affect her life when she moves from her home in Minnesota to San Francisco, California. Unfortunately for her, San Fran has broccoli pizza and not any back yard or lake! (You’ll get it when you see it, and yes you will probably see it :P)

Inside Out by Pixar animation studios Directed by
Inside Out by Pixar animation studios Directed by Pete Docter and Ronaldo Del Carmen.  **The Gaff Blog does not own this image**

Joy (Amy Poehler) is personified as a yellow, happy-as-can-be character with some lovely cerulean hair. Fear (Bill Hader) is an interesting lavender hue, and stops Riley in her tracks when danger arrives. Disgust (Mindy Kaling), is a green toned girl who, amongst other things, stops her from eating the dreaded broccoli. Anger, is as red and angry as can be. He is played by the king of anger: Lewis Black. If you don’t like Pixar, or animated films for whatever reason, go for Lewis Black. Lastly, Sadness (Phyllis Smith), the one no one seems to want, but we all learn that we need sometimes — is blue and while she is mostly given dialogue destined for the butt of a joke, she changes Riley’s life in an unexpected way. You may argue that there are more emotions than these in people’s lives, but I can argue that they all stem from the ones presented. All of Riley’s memories are shown arriving into her brain in a marble-like ball through long tubes and are color coated by each emotion.

As the film progresses, Sadness keeps transforming Riley’s most important memories (called “core memories”) into sad blue ones. Joy has been throughout Riley’s life consistently (Joy has been there in her head and within her life and relationships). Riley has loving parents, a good amount of friends and plays on a hockey team that involves both. Who wouldn’t be filled with joy? Joy wants to stay in Riley’s life, but things change.

Joy becomes lost and Riley is overcome with fear, anger and disgust when a big move happens. Literally Riley’s whole personality is destroyed. The characters Joy and Sadness become lost inside Riley’s head because of a freak accident. The tubes that send Riley’s memories for the day into the area of her brain with her long-term memory end up taking Joy and Sadness up and as a result they must find their way back to their main headquarters.

This freak accident coincides with the big move that Riley’s family makes, which seemingly could not happen at a worse time. Riley is unsure of herself and her new classmates on her first day and is overcome with sadness when Sadness touches her core memories and makes Riley realize she will not do these things again in San Francisco. Sadness transforms Riley’s memories (the one’s shown, which Riley cries over) of ice skating the first time on the lake with her dad, playing hockey with her friends, etc. Instead of remaining joyful memories, they become sad ones, and Riley is filled with grief. Joy takes the wheel, and in a panic to stop Sadness from wrecking Riley’s core memories goes up into the tube along with Sadness.

The journey back into headquarters is a long and colorful one. Even more colorful than the emotions controlling Riley’s reactions.

Wish to see a refreshing and funny film, that is deep and filled with some learning but also fun?

Make your life easy and go see Inside Out!

Your life can’t get any worse by seeing the movie, you might have already gone through puberty unlike Riley 😛

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Ava Duvernay Director of ‘Selma’ May Direct Marvel Film

Ava Duvernay Director of ‘Selma’ May Direct Marvel Film

I totally support Ava whether she decides to go through with directing a Marvel film or not. Loved her Tribeca Talk with Q-tip


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Cinderella Directed by Kenneth Branagh – Or Cinder-Ella, As I Will Forever Now Think

Cinderella Directed by Kenneth Branagh – Or Cinder-Ella, As I Will Forever Now Think

Before you read **spoiler alert** the plot and character info for Cinderella will certainly be divulged here** 😛

I know the first thing you have to say, or one of the first things.

What is the difference between this version of Cinderella and the animated one?

Well to start, it is live action. But that is only the most obvious difference visually. Otherwise, there are many great differences between the two.

1. First, or second, however you’re keeping count, the character development in this film is farrr greater than the animated version. Not only does the film start from Cinderella’s childhood, but we meet Cinderella’s mother and father (for more than a minute – Yayyyyy!) as well as her horrible step mother and step sisters. In addition to this, this film makes it a point to correct a misconception: Cinderella is a nickname, her name is actually Ella. Ella’s bratty step sisters come up with this clever but cruel nickname after Ella falls asleep in front of the fireplace and wakes up with ashes on her face the morning after. Get it? CinderElla? I don’t like it either after knowing what it resulted from, but I guess her and Disney stuck with it.

2. Kenneth Branagh’s version of Cinderella focused way more on people than mice, so kudos to him and Chris Weitz (writer of the screenplay) for that at least!

While I loved the animated version of Cinderella, it seems many people, especially the makers of CinemaSins, were not fond of the usage of the mice in the animated Disney version.

(source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52tWySIi2tM)

Branagh fully fleshes out the evil step mother and it could be said that he redeems her character slightly when he reveals the cause of her wicked ways. As cliche as it is, before marrying Ella’s dad and making Ella her personal slave, she lost the love of her life, thus she became cruel and bitter.

3. The Stepmother or Lady Tremaine, has a personality and is not just in bed all day! Yay!

In every scene that Lady Tremaine is in, she has the best clothes on. Click the picture if you dare:

Lady Tremaine Costumes Cinderella 2015,
Lady Tremaine Costumes Cinderella 2015, Kenneth Branagh. Credit to Disney

Yes, all of that is completely necessary lol. As a lover of clothes, it was sometimes hard to hate the step mother especially when she is played by the lovely Cate Blanchett. But then she opens her mouth again. Although Tremaine never lays a hand directly on Ella, she is extremely emotionally abusive towards Ella and treats her as subhuman, if that. She mentions time and time again how Ella is nothing more than a servant girl, and every time she says it, it has more of an impact on Ella’s self-worth.

4. The Step Sisters are much more snobby than in the animated version

This may not be considered a difference to some, but this film totally made me hate these girls on a personal level. It has nothing to do with how they dress, their taste in clothing (although garish), or how they look. What is actually bad, is although their dad has apparently died, they do not show any grief whatsoever. Not only that, but they ask their new step dad to bring them back lavish gifts from his excursion (whilst Ella asks for a sentimental gift of him simply returning). Normally this would not piss me off, yes some people are simple and others not. However, when the news is brought to Ella and the household that her dad has passed away from illness on his trip, Anastasia or Drizella, (I cannot remember which one, nor do I care) asks, “what about my lace?”  I apologize to anyone for the curse words about to grace this page but:


That’s where I’ll end the discussion of those girls.

5. Prince Charming is Charming Instead of Dull

Unlike the animated version, Prince Charming is not bored at his own ball before Ella arrives. However, he looks thoroughly insulted when Princess Chelina of Zaragos calls his kingdom small. Doesn’t she know not to call anything a man has small? Just kidding. You go girl. Someone had to say it lol. This princess had the guts and the gall. I’m not even mad 😛

Last but not least:

6. The Ball, Everything Leading Up to it and Happily Ever After

The details of how Ella gets to the ball and how she is dressed are pretty much the same except the live action blue dress is even more enchanting:

Cinderella's Dress to the Ball
Cinderella’s Dress to the Ball

Besides my enhanced love for her dress, and the fact that her Fairy God Mother is played by Helena Bonham Carter, the differences between this version and past ones could be considered small. A hint of the Grimm’s Brother’s Aschenputtel (German Cinderella) is present when we first see the fairy godmother. She first appears as if she grew into a really dry and brown tree. She is hunched over with her head facing downward until Ella requires her assistance. In their first meeting, the Fairy Godmother asks for some milk and Ella appeases her request as if someone randomly appearing by her door is a normal occurrence. Oh Disney.

  • There are less bippity-boppity-boo’s. I recall only one. Maximum two.
  • Each transformation of an animal/object makes sense unlike the animated film where a horse becomes the stage-coach driver instead of just being a horse… lol
  • While Miss Fairy Godmother totally destroys Ella’s glass garden house with a pumpkin, the glass and pumpkin combine to make the most breathtaking carriage anyone has laid eyes on. The combination of glass and gold is stunning to say the least
Cinderella's Carriage - Disney 2015
Cinderella’s Carriage – Disney 2015

The Prince reunites with Ella at the ball  (he changed the invitation list to his ball after their initial meeting in the woods, mostly so a non-royal, i.e. Ella, could attend) but still somehow forgets to ask her name before the clock strikes 12 *facepalm* Disney, do people really do this? But I digress…

We all know Ella drops one of her glass slippers while running down the steps to her carriage. The time it takes her to get to her carriage and half way home seems like the longest minute of my life. I thought the spell broke at 12 Disney, not at 12:01. But I forgive Disney even though technically they could have stretched their logic even further to allow Ella to make it home dry from the ball. Instead, she walks the rest of the way home in the rain.

Cinderella still gets Prince Charming in the end, even after the deal Lady Tremaine makes with the Grand Duke. Cindy has the pipes that force everyone to listen: when she sings, she makes people swoon. Gus Gus gets Ella’s attic window open just in time for the prince’s helpers to hear Cindy sing her song. The Prince orders Lady Tremaine to let the girl -he still does not know her name- out of the attic.

And they do live happily ever after, but it’s so much better than that

See it for yourself 🙂

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Excited About Announcement for Live Action Version of Milan?

Disney’s Mulan

I personally am very interested in seeing what Disney could do with a live action version of Mulan. It seems like Disney is set on branching out lately. With the live action version of Cinderella, I feel that they want to show a new generation of children these classics in a totally new way. Hope they come up with something great to compliment this past work.
**update*** March 28, 2017. 

How excited are we to hear of an all Asian cast AND that the film will not be music based like your average Disney flick?! 
I, myself am thrilled!!
N. Oliva