Sometimes I feel like the sun
Like I can bright up the whole world and everyone’s life
Like nothing can touch me
But it’s hard when you actually realize
You’re imperfect
And
That people you keep treating like your entire universe
Keep dousing your flames
Its as if people are ashamed of how bright you shine
Or they’re like the moon when there’s a lunar eclipse
They can’t help but block your shine
Maybe it’s a natural occurrence
Maybe when people get close to me they’re burned by my temperature
A lot of people look at me like I have something they want
Like a marvel
And maybe
Those wants are just superficial
Maybe I put too much energy into everything and everyone around me
But everytime I expect people to deliver what I give
I’m faced with disappointment
It’s hard to be selfless in a world of selfishness
It’s hard to keep shining in a world of darkness
“All I ever needed was your matchstick…
To take my wrongs and make them right
To take my darkness and make it bright”
I know I’m the one who yields the power of holding the match stick and lighting up my life
To keeping myself happy
But the world would be a little less lonely if people would try to get close and not act so cold
It’s ok to be warm
Warmth can be defined in different ways
People who are there when they have no reason to be
People that stick around and listen to you
They offer help if they can or they just spend time with you to let you know that you’re not alone
Because that’s the last thing that they would ever want someone to feel like
Maybe they try to make you laugh and forget about all of the bullshit
You’re not alone if you’re not in a relationship but who are we all kidding
Everyone wants to be with someone at the end of the day
Whether it’s the same person or not
Don’t push people away
Shine solo or together with someone
N. Oliva
The Gaff Blog 